fear of heights?

I can hardly watch this video. For me, watching this is like being there. Like in a real fear situation, it feels like FOREVER before the video ends. My first time watching, I had to take a break partway through it.

Watching it will be great practice for my work on my adrenalin-induced fear reactions. Somebody taught me that when I feel the fear, feel that very physical reaction that I get in my chest/gut and my legs turn to jello, it helps to work on moving the fear-feelings down into the bottom of my abdomen. There, it’s easier to handle for some reason. So watching this video gives me an opportunity to practice doing that.

[Link to video via today’s WinXPnews.]

wasting time

???Time you enjoyed wasting was not wasted.??? [John Lennon]


(Photo taken in English Bay, Vancouver, aboard Chi-Ling)

“Honor yourself in deciding how to spend your time, and then let yourself be and enjoy it. Moments come and go too quickly to waste one worrying about another that???s past. So enjoy your moments today, whatever that means to you, and know in doing that you???ve had a successful day.”?? [from tinybuddha.com]



A new term for me today, “slurls” — slurred URLs. The sometimes unfortunate results of putting company names into URLs without spaces. Read the following URLs. I mean read them.


Andy Geldman, author, has compiled 150 pages of slurls in his book Slurls: They Called Their Website What? Gelman said, “In a world without spaces we mentally insert out own. And you might not stick yours where I stick mine.”

Check out the hilarious slurls quiz on Facebook.

the rear view mirror


Yup, retirement is certainly proving to be a great b’day present to self. I’m enjoying it enormously. Have pretty much gotten over the “I’m bored, what should I do?” stage already. Ian, my partner, calls that the decompression stage of retiring. (SCUBA diver talk.)
But anyway, it’s so great to officially not have anything to do, to be able to flow from one activity to another willy-nilly, doing just whatever as it occurs to me. What kind of a life is that! Unimaginable, prior to having it. Pretty awesome.
Turns out, retirement isn’t about having nothing to do.??I’m mostly doing something all the time. But now there are no shoulds or have-tos, and now there’s no schedule. Daily life has become a flow of spontaneous activity. I even leave tasks unfinished, to return to later! (or not!)
Trouble is, when I do schedule some activity or another that has a certain time to do it and a certain place… it feels intrusive. Nevertheless, I’ve decided that I need to have some scheduled days, just to tune-up my feelings of appreciation for the days when there’s nothing I have to do. And appreciation for the willy-nilly flow of unscheduled life.
So maybe a better way to think of retirement, instead of “having nothing to do”, is “not having to do anything”.
And: “life, unscheduled“.

swarm intelligence favors NOVELTY

Bees fascinate me. I’d like to have my own bee farm, but alas condo living doesn’t allow for it.

Here’s a fascinating video about the bee waggle dance, in which forager bees tell their buddies back at the hive about EXACTLY where to find some great nectar.

I got the above from a very interesting article about Complexity and Swarm Intelligence, in which the author uses bee and ant behaviors to illustrate his thoughts. Bee behavior demonstrates systems, network theory, the power of working with a quorum, the significance of novelty within swarm intelligence, self-organization, and the process of group-decision making where there’s no leader to snuff out dissent.The article illustrates “how something approaching intelligence arises in a complex system comprising of non-intelligent individuals” and “how honeybees in a beehive, and ants in an ant colony, operate as a single, intelligent, super-organism.

The 2 points in the article I found most fascinating are:

#13: The evolutionary (internal rules)
part of the behaviour of the bees can also be explained in terms of
emergent behaviour. The networked swarm is adaptable and resilient,
and it nurtures small failures so that large failures do not happen
frequently. This helps not only survival and propagation, but also
favours NOVELTY. The large number of combinations and permutations
possible among the interacting agents has the potential for new
possibilities. And if heritability is brought in, individual
behaviour and experimentation leads to PERPETUAL NOVELTY, the
hallmark of evolution.

#14: The beehive can teach us a thing
or two about decision making by groups of individuals, particularly
the compromise between good decisions and swift decisions. Swift
decisions may be necessary at times, even at the risk of some

And then:

How to understand human intelligence as a kind of swarm intelligence. Human intelligence emerges from the interactions among neurons, in spite of the fact that any particular neuron is as dumb as can be.


Grab-and-go breakfast bars. Yum + healthy!


I just saw this recipe at the RealAge.com website (one of my favorite health-inducing websites). I’m putting these yummers on my to-make-soon list!

How-to-make-them video: http://bit.ly/dhEebJ

Or here is direct link to the recipe: http://bit.ly/aMtjyE

the 1 million buzz

twitterWhat’s it all about, tweetie bird?

Yesterday the twittersphere was all a-buzz about the first person to reach 1 million followers — Ashton Kutcher (@aplusk) won the competition with CNN (@cnnbrk ). Today the global media is all over it. The best part: Kutcher, CNN, and Oprah have all pledged to donate thousands of mosquito nets to fight the spread of malaria.

Something else that impressed me about the whole event: the global community aspect! Where else, even on the internet, can you experience millions of people all chatting live, together, in the same interface, at the same time, about the same thing?! We have so many ways to communicate with others around the globe, but twitter is clearly unique in this way.

Looking at twittervision 3D is like watching the earth talk to itself in non sequitors. Yesterday, though, the earth was united in its tweet-topic. Talk about a global party line! Makes me know that tweeps can make a difference, can make change happen, if we all get together and talk about it. Er, tweet about it.